1:00 am - During this long week end I worked on my proposal under supervision of my friend. I wrote parts, he read it, gave me comment and the loop was going on. now I can say a first draft is ready, I have 2 more days to work on it and Thursday I deliver it to my prof, he is not expecting this though but I want to get read of it, have time to study and wait for his comments.

I prepared the half of my proposal (first draft) under supervision of my friend. I really am stressed about the proposal defense, lack of knowledge that I have, what should I do?

7:00 pm- I didn't work yesterday although I was here, new phd students were here, we had some changes for the office and I was looking for an excuse!
today was better, though I wasted time, I was thinking about my proposal format, the objectives and son on, much difficult than what I was thinking, I prepared some pages, read a paper and should work more. I want to give the first draft next Thursday, still no comment from previous chapters, I am not sure if I have gone the right way or not. I hope tomorrow I work better. am going to my bro place for eftar

10:30 am - I worked around 6 hours yesterday, including the discussion with my friend. so, I re-arranged the entire chapter once more, add some parts, eliminate some others. now I want to give it a final read before sending it to my adviser which has put 10-12 papers on my desk during week end :( I have a meeting at 3 pm, they I will be off till tomorrow :D I should start studying plus writing my proposal. only 2 more months

3:20 pm - I just had my meeting. I worked on my chapter,and gave it to him, he took a look and said it seemed good. next meeting is 9 of sep, I want to finish my proposal till that time and discuss it with him, during the meeting he mentioned something about the problem and tools that I am using which were new to me, I got a bit nervous as he mentioned they may ask such things in my proposal defense, it is better I add some notes about it. I should work very hard in coming week to have a well developed proposal, otherwise I should say goodbye :)

4:00 am- at last I finished the chapters. well, it still have some minor changes to be done, maybe around 2-3 hours, but that's cool. actually I finished it 2 days ago, then i sent it to a friend of mine who does his postdoc, last night he called and talked about 2 hours! to say politely that they are not very well written. so today I had a look at all the chapters, then merged the last two ones, and changed the format, add some parts, delete others and it is now finished. I feel relief!
tomorrow I have guests for iftar, if I find time I would like to work on my proposal which is the only left part. Sunday I will go through the last written chapter again, to finalized it. Monday I have a meeting with my adviser and I guess after that I will be back to normal life, writing proposal and studying, I will update here daily then :)

I am still struggling with these two chapters, that's why I am not writing, I am stuck and it doesn't go further, I hate this situation. I should deliver it to my prof on Monday, then I will start a new life! including writing the final proposal and studying for the exam, I really hope I can finish this part till Friday.

2:00 am- I didn't write for few days as I wasn't productive at all. I was mad at myself, I have one week for the third deadline (two chapters), I just finished one chapter, maybe I look at it once more during the week but for now it is finished. tomorrow I am gonna start the second one, I also need to work on my proposal this week and start studying for the exam soon.