10:30 am - I worked around 6 hours yesterday, including the discussion with my friend. so, I re-arranged the entire chapter once more, add some parts, eliminate some others. now I want to give it a final read before sending it to my adviser which has put 10-12 papers on my desk during week end :( I have a meeting at 3 pm, they I will be off till tomorrow :D I should start studying plus writing my proposal. only 2 more months

3:20 pm - I just had my meeting. I worked on my chapter,and gave it to him, he took a look and said it seemed good. next meeting is 9 of sep, I want to finish my proposal till that time and discuss it with him, during the meeting he mentioned something about the problem and tools that I am using which were new to me, I got a bit nervous as he mentioned they may ask such things in my proposal defense, it is better I add some notes about it. I should work very hard in coming week to have a well developed proposal, otherwise I should say goodbye :)

4:00 am- at last I finished the chapters. well, it still have some minor changes to be done, maybe around 2-3 hours, but that's cool. actually I finished it 2 days ago, then i sent it to a friend of mine who does his postdoc, last night he called and talked about 2 hours! to say politely that they are not very well written. so today I had a look at all the chapters, then merged the last two ones, and changed the format, add some parts, delete others and it is now finished. I feel relief!
tomorrow I have guests for iftar, if I find time I would like to work on my proposal which is the only left part. Sunday I will go through the last written chapter again, to finalized it. Monday I have a meeting with my adviser and I guess after that I will be back to normal life, writing proposal and studying, I will update here daily then :)

I am still struggling with these two chapters, that's why I am not writing, I am stuck and it doesn't go further, I hate this situation. I should deliver it to my prof on Monday, then I will start a new life! including writing the final proposal and studying for the exam, I really hope I can finish this part till Friday.

2:00 am- I didn't write for few days as I wasn't productive at all. I was mad at myself, I have one week for the third deadline (two chapters), I just finished one chapter, maybe I look at it once more during the week but for now it is finished. tomorrow I am gonna start the second one, I also need to work on my proposal this week and start studying for the exam soon.

11:00 am- Friday, Saturday and Sunday I did absolutely nothing. I was thinking to start a very good Monday, I am so disappointed, worked for around 1 hour. I don't know what is wrong with me, I am going to start now, I have been here since 9:30!

5:00 pm- I worked for 2~3 hours I guess :( I am going home, maybe continue working from there

3:00 pm- the meeting was not bad, bad news is that I have my exam in mid October, in two months, and I didn't have studied yet, although he said u have 2 weeks during exam to find out about things u didn't study, meaning the questions could be non-related to my studies. good news, he said he will give the comments of my chapters in 2 weeks, a great part of it, and so far he thinks this is good, happy about that and waiting for loads of comments. I should work on two left chapters and start studying, I feel dizzy. I was reading a thesis to get some idea from morning.

4:30 pm- well I worked for about 4 hours, but don't feel that I have progress, I was trying to do some simulation for tomorrow's meeting and I am still trying, I am not sure if I can make it, I should leave in 1~1h30 as my aunt is coming to my bro house, she is leaving on Saturday and this is the last party! the meeting is at 2 pm tomorrow and then my prof will go away for conference and vacation! yoohoo (well it is only for 10 days) it means I wont have meeting for 2 weeks!

2:00 am- I worked till 5h30, reading some thesis and papers, actually taking a look, to see if I can find any data related to the last 2 chapters, then I came home, changed and went to my bro place to see my aunt, was there till around 12, came home and a friend of mine called, i had asked him some question regard my proposal (how/what should I write), then I talked with him for about 1h30, explaining about my project, but it was good, things are a bit more clear now. oh, I wish tomorrow will be a good day, I mean the meeting

I have been unbelievable in last few days, a total ^$%@$^@#@%^, I absolutely did nothing, I was so so down, not even in the mood of talking, being harsh on everyone around me. I feel better now, today I was home all day and did nothing, either sitting on the chair checking internet with no enthusiasm or sleeping, I hope tomorrow I be back to my normal mood

1:00 pm- I didn't write last few days here, finally I finished chapter 3 and 4 last night and sent it to my prof,it was not exactly what I wanted, some parts were still missing and I decided to eliminate them from these chapters and bring them back in final chapter, so I have more time to improve the text! today I am not sure if I do something or not, came late and want to go home soon, anyway I try to work a bit. and the last but not least "cheshmetun roshan" :)